You know those moments where you’re sitting with a close friend, and before you know it, you’ve totally spilled your guts about whatever crazy/scary/amazing/terrible thing is going on in your life? That’s what this space is for. We’ve all found ourselves in a place we never expected or never wanted to be. But while we’re here – wherever here may be for you – let’s talk about it.
There is one thing I’ve been keenly reminded of today as I sit in the middle of my old stomping grounds: Though He really never does things in a way that I can predict or expect, God always brings things to an expected end of His design.
Ever been ghosted by a friend? Like just out of the blue, no more brunch dates, no more texts, no explanations, just gone. This has happened to me with a few people over the last few decades. A couple of them have come back around and let me know “Hey I realize that my disappearance must have been hurtful, but it had nothing to do with you. I was going through some stuff, and I just had to focus on me.”
He is bigger than we know. Bigger than what we read on these well-worn pages in the Bible. More powerful. More loving. More perfect than we can ever imagine. And how could we when everything we have ever known in our earthly lives is fallible and broken? How can we entertain eternity when all we’ve known in life is a series of endings?
That’s not to say we should abandon our efforts to know Him; instead, we should seek to eradicate our curiosity by devoting ourselves to communion with Him.
I’ve been feeling a little unnoticed – mostly by God, a little by man. Even though I know He sees everything, I just wasn’t feeling like He cared about how I felt. Maybe He sees the circumstances, but doesn’t notice my feelings about those circumstances. You too? Let’s talk about it…
Can I tell the truth about how I’m feeling now? I’m tired of myself.
Tired of only seeing the world according to my vantage point.
Tired of fixating on what I think God should be doing or why He isn’t doing it, as if I had any wisdom to add to the conversation at all.
Tired of being frustrated. Tired of “faithing” it.
Tired of my selfish humanity. Tired of my pride.
Have you ever felt this way? Let’s talk about it…